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So tonight I ended up getting up at about midnight after going to bed, and going into town.
Game went pretty well. I wasn’t really into it at first, but eventually you do get into the swing of things!
So I was at a bar, and I was chatting to a couple of girls, and this other, typical hot looking girl gives me eyes, then she comes up to me and starts being all sexy.
Long story short, I take her off with me. But turns out this girl is really drunk. We go to another bar (it’s actually a bar that I know the owner of), and she tells me that she’s hungry, so I get her some fries to eat. She’s like, passing out drunk.
I figure I’ll take her home. Like, it is the better thing to do. This girl is a hotty, and also I’m looking after her. Because HEY I actually am a pretty decent person.Even if I did have sex with her, the sex/situation would be better than with some other munter.
Anyway – so she falls a sleep in the taxi, and I actually need to drag her out.
Get her to my house (I should have taken her back to her house, she’d be much more comfortable there).
So we make out for a bit, get her to take of her shoes, I ask if she wants to take off her dress, and she doesn’t. So it’s making out, she gives me a hand job for a bit (I’m really turned on).. Anyway – I think I escalated it physically too quickly (moved her hands to my cock again), took it from that magical feel good place, to just physical stimulation.
So she’s fallen deep a sleep now.
For a bit I try to rouse her by making out with her, getting her to touch my dick, but it’s not effective, so then I decide I just need to ignore her to the morning. She’s in a pretty deep sleep.
Now the problem is, this girl has been right into me, and I’ve been turning her on. But all that is going to disapate, and I worry that in the morning she’s just going to get up and leave, with nothing for me to show for it.
I guess the main thing is for me to like the person that I am for the night. So there’s a few things that I don’t like. I should have taken her to her place. The too quick physical escalation (this is actually a big one, because that’s pretty much my entire sexual performance there).
THe real problem is, is that I can’t sleep. I’d sleep much better, had I be having some wild sex. 
So the plan from here. Try to go to sleep. In the morning, start from scratch with the seduction process. Maybe take her to farmers market. Get her comfortable. Spend time with her. Pretty much that.
That’s what’s going to make me feel going about the person that I am. (Not getting laid, with some rushed, bad sex).
Alright, cool, I’m starting to feel pretty good. I need to remember this as a mantra.
So really – how do I go to sleep now? Lol, I could walk back into the town and try pick up again…but whatevs.
Still, I can’t sleep. Alright, let’s take a leak.
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So I’ve followed your blog for awhile. As someone who works in social services, I’ve seen and heard a lot and I enjoyed hearing your perspective, so your posts never really bothered me. I noticed you seem to revolve your life around picking up girls. I think you’re doing a great job at managing binge eating and show a lot of control in that area. Other than that, didn’t have a major reaction to your posts. I am hesitant to even say my thoughts because I know you struggle with depression, but I think this needs addressed as you are constantly wondering about why your romantic life doesn’t go differently.
This post was flat out disturbing. I got a funny feeling in my stomach while reading it — the kind you get when you’re in a haunted house. You have mentioned in several of your posts that people say you are creepy and it is clear it bothers you. This is why they say it! If you think the fact that you pick up some random drunk girl at the bar, go with her to another bar, buy her french fries, and “look after her” entitles you to having sex with her (which she clearly wasn’t interested in based on what came after), is not creepy, you should talk with someone about it and try and understand why you think that way. You say she was into you, but she cannot have been that coherent or into you if she was intermittently sleeping while you were trying to hook up with her. She said she didn’t want to take off her clothes and quit giving you a hand job. This means she wasn’t interested in sex with you and the fact that you continued making out with her after she passed out, is creepy and predator-like. I know you know this because you tagged this post with “rape”.
Even people who have one night stands have some level of respect for each other. It isn’t a matter of me thinking going out with the idea that you want to have sex with some random person is inherently bad. What is bad, is choosing a woman who is clearly too drunk to consent to anything, let alone going home with you, because you find her attractive and would enjoy having sex with her. Your words show you think of her as an object or an investment. If she got up in the morning and left you’d “have nothing to show for it.” Do you really think buying a girl french fries and bringing back to your home where you try and take advantage of her means she owes you anything? If anything, you owe her for treating her how you did.
I really hope you use my thoughts to examine yourself. I know this is a place for you to freely express yourself and I don’t want to intrude on that anymore than I have, so I am going to unfollow your blog. I just wanted you to hear the perspective of an attractive 23 year old girl.
Hi Jackie.
Thanks heaps for your post. I haven’t been sure how many people actually read this blog. I have 20 followers and get quite a few likes on my posts, but I suspect that they’re automated bots increasing their blog’s online visablity.
(I just checked, certainly I’ve got what looks like one regular view, and then increased views on Saturdays).
I’m sorry that this blog can’t be just about an eating disorder for you.
This is a real story. How do you think it feels to be the guy sitting on that side of the story?
Read this morning’s post.
Clearly, I have issues here as well.
I need to fix this up.
I figure it should be fine. What I have done, you’d have a pretty difficult time trying to charge me legally here.
I’m not trying to be a bad person here.
You can clearly see I’m trying to be a good person.
But what I’m going to find difficult, is when getting romantic with girls, I want to be really honest be able to really my expose ourselves as people to each. So encounter’s like this are going to put my chances off, it either being too embarrassing or shameful for me to talk about, or it’s going to put them off.
But… you know – from my perspective, given that I’m a person who has done these things, and will be that person for the rest of my life, what’s my perspective got to be?
Basically, I need to continue what I’m doing. I need to be harder on my rejection hammer of what I girls I don’t allow myself to go there.
If we talk about the actual story, how it could have gone better would be that I realise that she’s quite drunk in the bar, and abort then. What would have happened? I could have probably found her friends for her, or got a taxi for her back to her place.
Certainly, when it came to taking a taxi home, it would have been better to take her to her place.
Probably then, I could have more easily been able to escape the situation.
I can’t really afford to feel really bad about this. I have to just keep liking the person that I am making that step toward toward being a good person.